I am sorry!
I know that it might be kind of worthless but it was only today I really understand the mistakes I have made repeatedly throughout the year. Only today have I realized what an arse I can be sometimes. Only now I know what I have to do to make things right.
Having been busy with both my course and council activities, I barely have time for myself. Well I have also mismanaged my time and there’re no excuses for it, no doubt. But more than that, it was made known to me what I shouldn’t have done all along.
I have always said and insisted that other people’s impression of you doesn’t matter. True it doesn’t but when you yourself are beginning to have doubts about it. It is time to change. Well for me, I still hope that it isn’t too late. Or is it?
I was told time and time again that I have been childish. Well, just like a child, I refused to believe them and go on with my ways. Coming to think of it, it has been true all along that I am too naïve and yeah, stupid. The way I talk and how I bring myself sometimes even disgust me when I reflect back. Undoubtedly, there are times to let go and all, but I seem to be doing all of it at the wrong time! Up till today, I still need to be reminded of when to be serious and when to play!
Well, all I hope is that I can and will change for the better. Therefore I still need all of your help. Do remind me about what a fool I was before this and advice me on how to change. I really need that people! For those that have done so. Thanks a lot! I will always try to remember them and you of course for all of the help you all have given me. You know who you are =)